I was spending $1000 a day and still wanting more

My using got to the point where I was spending $1000 a day and still wanting more.

I was using the Fentanyl patches and Xanax as well and just getting smashed and doing a lot of bad stuff that I would never normally do. I was driving a car in some really bad states; I don’t know how I didn’t kill myself or someone else. I was shoplifting really badly. I’m very lucky I never got charged. My mates started dropping like flies and they were dying from using the same drugs I was. I reckon I’ve got a couple of guardian angels looking out for me. After losing so many friends I realised I needed to do something about my drug use and that’s when I decided to come to rehab.

I made the decision to come to WHOS RTOD because it sounded like the best program for me and I eventually wanted to get off my methadone. So I started ring to get myself a bed here and I told my missus and family that I would be gone for 6 -7 months. They were all so happy that I had made the decision to get clean.

I was so nervous as this is my first rehab. When I got here I didn’t know what to expect and I was kind of scared when I first got here. I thought it would be like a jail. I had been told that rehab was a horrible place. RTOD has exceeded my expectations. I love it. I didn’t think I could open up to people. I feel safe here to talk about my personal stuff. I feel safe and comfortable in this environment. I wasn’t sure about the TC concept when I first got here but I know now how awesome it really is to have the love and support from my fellow peers and I hope they feel the same. The TC allows me to say or do what I need to get better. The staff are caring, supportive and understanding without any judgement. I am so grateful to be here and that I have an opportunity to change my life.

I have worked in the cafe as KC (kitchen coordinator) and learnt so much from Jevan the Catering Educator. I want to do an apprenticeship as a butcher and the skills I have learnt as KC will assist me in this.

I now feel like I am really finding myself and getting to know and love myself without the drugs and the crap that comes with them. I am now working on a list of my behaviours I need to change and I feel like I am really getting somewhere and that I am becoming a better person. I could never have done it without my peers, the staff and the RTOD program and I'll be forever grateful to this place and everyone here who has given me the support I need.

I now have hopes and dreams for the future. I want to travel, study, and be able to hold down a steady job. I want to be able to spend time with my family, who are so proud of how far I’ve come.

Really I just want to make the most of life and live like a normal person. I also want to be the kind of person that my family can rely on and trust.