I was 18 when I first tried drugs. I didn’t touch them again until I was 24. Then for 3 years I partied every weekend and heavily with ecstasy and amphetamines mainly. It took 3 years before I realised I was losing my relationship, my friends and destroying my relationship with my family.
I would have mood swings and irrational behaviour as well as paranoia. Eventually I realised that unless I broke the cycle and moved away for a while I couldn’t possibly stop using. When I returned I set myself goals and told all my friends I couldn’t go to certain events where I knew they would be taking drugs. It is the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do and there were times when I fell down and crumbled under pressure… I still think about using every day, however I have set up things on my weekends to prevent me from getting bored and using.
Basically what I want to say is, I know there are a heap of people in my predicament. There are so many people around my age and younger, that think taking ecstasy and speed on the weekend isn’t an addiction because they aren’t taking it every day. The effects that taking drugs just on the weekend has, is enormous!! I only realised this when I stopped taking them every weekend and my whole world changed. My relationship has gone from fighting every week and weekend to loving, supportive and secure. My friendships are wonderful and my working life is amazing! My bosses actually take me seriously now!
The hardest thing to do is to admit to yourself you do have a problem with drugs. I used to justify that I was only using on the weekends therefore it wasn’t an addiction. Until I became an emotional mess and couldn’t see the forest for the trees, I wasn’t ready to do anything about it.
To everyone that thinks their life would be boring without drugs on the weekend, I’ve been there and believe me it’s fantastic without it. It’s like being able to look through your eyes without a haze and being able to think properly without cobwebs.